T minus 5 days

Our Anniversary Vacation starts in 5 days. We have been looking forward to this vacation for over a year. While we have been away on short vacations numerous times over the last 10 years, this is the first time we're going away for 8 solid days. Eight solid days of sun, pool, ocean, food, drink and fun. We're taking 3 other couples with us, and we're all looking forward to a great time. The only thing that has dampened our spirits is the "Swine Flu" outbreak (we're going to Cancun, Mexico), but my best friend scored me some Tamiflu, so I'm not going to worry about it, much. (By nature, I am a notorious "worry-wart," so I have to worry.)

When we booked this vacation, over a year ago, I set a goal for myself to be back at my "wedding day weight" of 117 lbs. I am not going to make it; I'm not even close. I had a 3 month set back from November - January, but I'm not sure I would have made it even if I hadn't been lazy during the holidays. I feel bad that I won't achieve my goal, but I'm not devastated. I know how hard I've worked, especially since February. I'm strong, I'm pretty fit, and I can wear some of my size 6 clothes. I bought a (skimpy for me) bikini, and I plan to wear it proudly.

This vacation has provided most of my motivation for the last few months, so I need to come up with a new motivation. I like the changes I'm seeing in my body, so that is definitely motivating. Recently, I found out my neighbor signed up to do the relay portion of the Detroit Free Press Marathon in October. He thinks they need 2 more people to round out their 5 person team, and I volunteered to do a 5 mile leg. We'll see about this. As I've written before, I hate running, but I want to be a runner. By volunteering to be a part of a relay team, I think it will help me stay motivated. It's only 5 miles, and I won't want to let anyone down by not training or completing my portion of the race. I don't actually have confirmation from my friend that I'm "in," but the more I think about it, the more I think it's a good idea for me.