1. was thinking about re-entering the
workforce full time
workforce full time
2. wasn’t forty years old, and
3. weighed 130 pounds.
At least that’s what I gleaned from reading the last post I published in September of 2011.
Since then, I:
1. went back to work full time
2. turned 40, and
3. gained 30 pounds.
In my mind, it is not a coincidence that I gained this weight. In the past four years I simply lost control. I lost control of my eating habits. I skipped breakfast replacing it with a skinny vanilla latte or other such coffee drink from Starbucks. I failed to pack a healthy lunch, opting to either go out or eat a frozen meal. I lost my work out mojo. I rarely worked out. I did workouts here and there and even had a trainer coming to the house for a few months back in 2013, but I have not been able to sustain healthy habits for any significant period of time since going back to work full time. I have a mostly sedentary job, this fact became crystal clear to me when I began using an activity tracker, specifically the Jawbone Up.
So, I have resolved to take control of my weight and get back down to a reasonable weight.
Let me stop here for a moment and talk about my weight. Before I started this six week challenge, I was not even certain if I had gained 30 pounds in the last 4 years because honestly, I had not stepped on a scale in over a year, if not more. I loathe the scale. I hate the idea of stepping on the scale because I know it will reveal an obnoxiously obscene number. Before I started this challenge, what scared me most was the possibility that I weighed even more than I thought I did, and that came true when I had my official weigh-in for this challenge.
Today, the scale is still not my friend. I still tremble at the thought of stepping on it because though the numbers have been dropping of late, I know there will come a time when the scale will disappoint me... it will show no loss or a small loss despite all of my hard work and effort. I'm not sure how I will handle that when that day comes...